I’ve come to understand…

… a few things about myself this weekend during my moments of stillness and reflection.  The thought of participating with large groups of people in something produces a fair amount of anxiety.  I’m not sure why, even when chances are I knew a fair amount of folks there at said event, but it was just tweaking me out.  Something that I just didn’t feel confident enough to handle on my own… perhaps fearing information overload and that stress would just bring down all my systems.

I once had a co-worker tell me the same thing… that he’s shy and not good with groups of people.  I didn’t think any less of him for telling me that.  It was forthright.  It was honest and frankly, I appreciate it now in reflection.  How brave it is to step forward and admit something personal about your nature.  I respect him and am going to totally be honest with myself and others when I approach and event like this moving forward.  (Thanks, Mike)

I have also come to understand that I do well in small groups of like-minded individuals.  Kasee and I had this idea to start up a knitting group and its been going so well… amazing people that I have met, all joined together by the common threads of knitting.  Its really refreshing to get to meet such intelligent and crafty women.  Really a breath of fresh air.  I am soooo grateful that I started knitting a few years ago.  It has giving me so much of an outlet and in some cases has even been a savior.